Loss

Adaptation

40 years in the desert, they walked. Escaping slavery. Making life move in barren land. Lost? That’s the word on the street. But there was freedom in that. They had to keep on walking. In search for the Mother Land. New life on old grounds. An opportunity to recreate themselves.    40 years in the desert, so that the generation that knew slavery will not step on the soil of the ancestors, as it opens itself up to the feet [...]

Reformation In Isolation

It was hard to get out of bed this morning. Dark and cold outside. I wanted to get up before everyone else, so that I can have a moment for myself to meditate, but it didn’t happen. So I meditated with the kids staring at me. They tried to be quiet, but most of the time they forgot about the quiet contract that they signed when they decided to sit on the couch in the living room while I meditated. [...]

Where Whole Becomes Holy

As the light dims, and the hours of darkness expand, the temperature lowers, and the desire to spend less time outdoors increases, we are moved by nature’s guidance indoors and inwards.   The rhythm of this season is slower. It inspires contemplation. It invokes meditation. It ignites the fire in the cave of our dreams. The spirit of the season guides us into a space of less doing, and more being, where we can enliven our creativity by releasing and [...]

When Epic Turns Subtle

I used to practice a few hours a day. Every day. Deep backbends. Arm-balances galore. Most of my day was spent upside down. Hip openers and forward bends took me into the eye of the storm that was me. I’d get high on oxygen with all that pranayama. I’d drive around town and take multiple classes a day with amazing teachers. I drank in the yoga, not in goblets, but in buckets. It was profound.     Sometimes I’d get a [...]

Death & Decay

It’s that time of year again - the peak of Fall, tipping over the midpoint between Fall Equinox and Winter Solstice. Darkness is gaining momentum. The days are getting shorter and shorter, faster and faster. Nights are growing longer. Death and Decay spread wide through the natural world now.    We are being pulled down. Guided to be lost beneath the surface of the earth, beneath the surface of our lives. Down and deep and in to the underworld. To [...]

Your Calling

I hear the call: “Mama!” Coming from the bedroom. It’s almost 9pm. I just finished cleaning. I’m having my evening coffee and finally sitting down to write.   “MAMA!"   It has only been an hour since I transferred him to his bed from our cuddle pile.    I’m feeling resistant. Common, title dude! I need a minute! I was with you all day. I’ve been ON. You’re a toddler. It’s non stop. Give mama a break, will you? I [...]

Receive Yourself, Strengthen Yourself, And Create Yourself – Yogafying Sukkot

Hey lovely!   Life keeps getting more and more complex. Doesn’t it? We become more layered. There’s more to deal with, more responsibilities, more on our plates. We are more deeply invested in things. We are tangled up and woven in to other lives more intensely. We become more grounded in who we are. But our tendency to become more rigid increases. Our foundation is seemingly more solid. But there’s also more loss. The ground beneath us threatens to shake [...]

“You can have it all!” is a lie!

You can’t!   My goddess, I used to live by the idea that the only limitations are the ones we create in our minds. I was young and naive. And honestly, I had no idea what I was talking about.   Oh! The humility!   Before I became a mama, and even through the first couple of years, I really believed that I could do it all. That I could continue to blossom in the career I had worked so [...]

Time Bending

What’s the area of your life that feels the most out of control for you?   I can name a few things here. We really are in control of so little, aren’t we? But if I had to choose the one main thing, it would be Time.   It’s the heartbreaking beauty of watching my kids growing up so fast, too fast, perfectly appropriately on time, I guess, but too fucking fast!!!! There’s a letting go that needs to happen [...]

Living With Intention. And Totally Winging It.

My friend was wrapping a pink ribbon around a flower crown. “I don’t think about it too much, I just live.” She said. I felt a little surprised by that statement. Especially because, well, I do. “Omg! I think about it so much!” I said. I felt myself judging myself for being the way that I am. I thought: “She must think I’m such a freak!” I kind of am.   I don’t think about this often, but I do [...]

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