Kali

Maha Shivaratri – Desire, Love, Devotion, Commitment, Freedom

I love a good holiday - one that invites us to contemplate deeply, to call for our inspiration, to bring form to our desires, to bring forth the expression of our deepest longing. Last night (and today) is one of my favorite holidays. It is Maha Shivaratri - the Great Night Of Shiva.   In India, this is a night of great celebration and deep meditation. The tradition is to fast and stay up all night, to commune with the [...]

Underworld Adventure

It’s been an intense year, and as it launches itself into the final stretch, it offers some relief, but still the bells of crazies ring loud.     The leaves change colors and fall off the trees, and the world darkens and quiets down and  cools off. We descend. Some of us hear the call to go into the inner spaces, into our roots. Down below the surfaces, deep, down, and in we go. We burrow with the scorpions.    It’s [...]

Reformation In Isolation

It was hard to get out of bed this morning. Dark and cold outside. I wanted to get up before everyone else, so that I can have a moment for myself to meditate, but it didn’t happen. So I meditated with the kids staring at me. They tried to be quiet, but most of the time they forgot about the quiet contract that they signed when they decided to sit on the couch in the living room while I meditated. [...]

Cosmic Love

Whether he dances in the forest of my heart, howls in the dark nights of my soul, meditates on mountain tops inside my head, retreats to his cave, takes the seat of the teacher, or roams the cremation grounds of my life’s deaths, Siva is by far my favorite masculine deity.    (not a gender thing, but rather a code, an energy, a coalition of qualities)    I am a sucker for metaphor. Myths and archetypes help me understand myself [...]

Where Whole Becomes Holy

As the light dims, and the hours of darkness expand, the temperature lowers, and the desire to spend less time outdoors increases, we are moved by nature’s guidance indoors and inwards.   The rhythm of this season is slower. It inspires contemplation. It invokes meditation. It ignites the fire in the cave of our dreams. The spirit of the season guides us into a space of less doing, and more being, where we can enliven our creativity by releasing and [...]

Death & Decay

It’s that time of year again - the peak of Fall, tipping over the midpoint between Fall Equinox and Winter Solstice. Darkness is gaining momentum. The days are getting shorter and shorter, faster and faster. Nights are growing longer. Death and Decay spread wide through the natural world now.    We are being pulled down. Guided to be lost beneath the surface of the earth, beneath the surface of our lives. Down and deep and in to the underworld. To [...]

Time Bending

What’s the area of your life that feels the most out of control for you?   I can name a few things here. We really are in control of so little, aren’t we? But if I had to choose the one main thing, it would be Time.   It’s the heartbreaking beauty of watching my kids growing up so fast, too fast, perfectly appropriately on time, I guess, but too fucking fast!!!! There’s a letting go that needs to happen [...]