Last week was harder. By Thursday I woke up in the morning and I was a mean mommy. I really tried not to be. During the night and into the early morning Shefa wasn’t letting me sleep. He woke up so early and used his special rooster voice. That voice he likes to use on those really early mornings when I am especially exhausted. Some mornings, even if he’s waaaaay too early to be awake, he [...]
Twice a year we get to experience the balance between day and night, darkness and light. Equinox is a moment in time that offers a glimpse into equilibrium. Many people treat balance as a goal. #balance #lifegoal But let’s face it - balance only exists here and there for a split second, and then it tips over towards more of one thing, and less of another. Equilibrium is a state in which polar energies are balanced. It offers the [...]
It was hard to get out of bed this morning. Dark and cold outside. I wanted to get up before everyone else, so that I can have a moment for myself to meditate, but it didn’t happen. So I meditated with the kids staring at me. They tried to be quiet, but most of the time they forgot about the quiet contract that they signed when they decided to sit on the couch in the living room while I meditated. [...]
She’s sitting on the bench by the dinning table, hair a little messy, lots of missing teeth, a crazy wide spread of artist markers - a hundred and twenty colors and shades, to be exact. She’s working on an elephant. Fifteen shades of gray. Muse-struck. “Mama?” her eyes are focused on the curving lines of her elephant trunk. “Yes, my love.” “I have all these bad thoughts in my head.” The trunk she’s working on is playfully [...]
It’s time to stir things up. Earth is spinning and this northern half of the planet is beginning to receive more light. It grows slowly, not rushing in with bells on. It’s just slowly gaining momentum. With it comes hope. Once upon a time when we lived more attuned to the cycles of the planet, sunlight was life force. We’re halfway through Winter, and halfway towards Spring. The sun is getting stronger. With it the earth regenerates life as [...]
As the light dims, and the hours of darkness expand, the temperature lowers, and the desire to spend less time outdoors increases, we are moved by nature’s guidance indoors and inwards. The rhythm of this season is slower. It inspires contemplation. It invokes meditation. It ignites the fire in the cave of our dreams. The spirit of the season guides us into a space of less doing, and more being, where we can enliven our creativity by releasing and [...]
It’s that time of year again - the peak of Fall, tipping over the midpoint between Fall Equinox and Winter Solstice. Darkness is gaining momentum. The days are getting shorter and shorter, faster and faster. Nights are growing longer. Death and Decay spread wide through the natural world now. We are being pulled down. Guided to be lost beneath the surface of the earth, beneath the surface of our lives. Down and deep and in to the underworld. To [...]
You have strengths. Powerful abilities. The capacity to overcome challenges. We all have stubborn tendencies. Aspects of our being that keep us blocked in some ways. Parts of who we are that keep us stuck. You have vulnerabilities. Sweet spots. A soft side. Places in you that are wide open. We all have weaknesses. Instabilities. Shaken grounds. Dark holes that threaten to swallow us. You are a woven together tapestry of triumphs and disappointments, hurt spaces and a healing forces, [...]
The Amazon forest is burning and there’s nothing I can do about it. Tears in my throat. Smoke in my eyes. I feel so angry. Furious. Depressed. Suffocated by the inability to do anything. Petitions. Prayers. Whatever, right? It’s exhausting to marvel at how powerless we are. It seems as though the Bolsonaros and the Trumps and the Netanyahus of the world are winning. I’ve always been a doubter, cynical, a bit edgy, and a little jaded. But [...]
The other day I was driving with the kids back from the beach. Rush hour. We took the small streets, trying to avoid big traffic. The light was turning golden, and the way that it moved through the branches of the Jacaranda trees was spectacular. Still some purple woven through them. Dance in their stance. I reached for my water bottle and took a sip. Sand. Sand in my teeth. You’re gonna maybe think I’m weird, but in that [...]
