The kids have been climbing on a tree in the back of the house. Before Covid, we never considered our back area to be a back yard. It’s where we park the cars. And have a garage we use for storage. We share the space with our landlady. There are a few plants out there. And three young trees by the side of the house. Since the beginning of Quarantine we’ve been parking the cars on the street. The [...]
I clearly feel the transformation. It’s slow but hot. Smokey and non-linear. I can’t help but seeing the opportunity that this crisis holds in its hands. “Here,” It says. “It’s not gonna seem like a gift. In fact, there’s gonna be some hell to burn through. But if you seize the opportunity, and unwrap the outer layers, and after a lot of suffering for a lot of people, you will unpack the box, you will find some new seeds [...]
How are you feeling these days? Are you sinking into this time? Are you flowing with it? Rolling with the punches? Itching to spring out of it? Dreading what awaits on the other side? I find myself NOT wanting to go back to “normal.” Ever since quarantine began, I have been less stressed, less depressed, less on edge. I feel guilty about it because so many people are suffering. I miss my parents and my sister [...]
We’re in this together. My actions are woven into your airways. We’re in this together. Your lungs and mine - breathing each other’s fate. We’re in this together. Your actions directly influence my pulse. We’re in this together. My life and yours. We’re in this together. Which is why it pains me when I encounter carelessness and insensitivity. When so clearly greed is the leading force behind so much of our world. When it seems like for some people, others [...]
From Quarantine Queen, Mindful Mother, Domestic Dame, Goofy Goddess, Mama Magic, to: “SHUT THE FUCK UP EVERYONE, AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!” Waves. Cycles. Spirals. Patient. Present. Strong. Stable. Fluid. Fun. Bitchy. Broken. Sensitive. Stuck. Wavering. Wondering… When I rock the covid (the new lifesty, not the virus), I feel grounded and giving - a source of support. A resource of steadiness. A sorceress - alchemizing the situation. Bending the boundaries to tend with tenderness [...]
Last week was harder. By Thursday I woke up in the morning and I was a mean mommy. I really tried not to be. During the night and into the early morning Shefa wasn’t letting me sleep. He woke up so early and used his special rooster voice. That voice he likes to use on those really early mornings when I am especially exhausted. Some mornings, even if he’s waaaaay too early to be awake, he [...]
Twice a year we get to experience the balance between day and night, darkness and light. Equinox is a moment in time that offers a glimpse into equilibrium. Many people treat balance as a goal. #balance #lifegoal But let’s face it - balance only exists here and there for a split second, and then it tips over towards more of one thing, and less of another. Equilibrium is a state in which polar energies are balanced. It offers the [...]
This morning the kids were fighting during yoga. Kesem was really upset because Shefa wasn’t practicing with us. She cried and yelled. He wanted to do his own thing and she couldn’t accept it. They played beautifully later. She read to him. And they built things. They made art. They hugged a lot. We still have lots of food. Although I’m starting to feel Anxious about what’s coming next. Will the stores stay open? The box of vegetables [...]
It was hard to get out of bed this morning. Dark and cold outside. I wanted to get up before everyone else, so that I can have a moment for myself to meditate, but it didn’t happen. So I meditated with the kids staring at me. They tried to be quiet, but most of the time they forgot about the quiet contract that they signed when they decided to sit on the couch in the living room while I meditated. [...]
She’s sitting on the bench by the dinning table, hair a little messy, lots of missing teeth, a crazy wide spread of artist markers - a hundred and twenty colors and shades, to be exact. She’s working on an elephant. Fifteen shades of gray. Muse-struck. “Mama?” her eyes are focused on the curving lines of her elephant trunk. “Yes, my love.” “I have all these bad thoughts in my head.” The trunk she’s working on is playfully [...]
