The energy of Summer is slipping away. We are making our way toward the dark days of the year. It feels like we’ve been in the dark days of the year the whole year. The Great Unknown has been a reliable friend. It’s back to school time for some of us. Like other people, I feel a sense of stagnation, even as we move into this new beginning. This year demands of us to stay put as we fall apart. [...]
Somewhere between tenacious will power and sleepy eyes, between fierce desire accompanied by horse power determination, and spiraling down the road of 2020. Somewhere between a steadfast destination and the abyss beneath our feet. Eyes tired. Chest tight. I breathe slowly and have another coffee, trying to stay awake for a little longer and get some work done. It’s not even the lack of sleep. I am usually an energy fireball. Give me coffee and I can move like [...]
Life is a messy business. It’s a beautiful, inspiring, out of control, wild ride. We try to keep it somewhat stable. We have moments when we feel like we’ve got this. But really, let’s face it, life is not an organized, clean endeavour. Crisis is always percolating. It oozes from within the crevices of the everyday. And it rains on our heads, usually on the days when we forget to take an umbrella. Generally speaking, we want to make [...]
I am out in the back with the kids. They are playing with water and mud. Slippery and covered in childhood memories. The hot afternoon california Summer sun dancing on their faces with rays of youthful sparkles. I am playing Pixies. The bluetooth speaker vibrating in the cup holder of my camp chair. “Hey! Been trying to meet you... Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo…” Memories of cold nights on platform shoes, outside the clubs in Jerusalem of the 90’s. [...]
The kids have been climbing on a tree in the back of the house. Before Covid, we never considered our back area to be a back yard. It’s where we park the cars. And have a garage we use for storage. We share the space with our landlady. There are a few plants out there. And three young trees by the side of the house. Since the beginning of Quarantine we’ve been parking the cars on the street. The [...]
I clearly feel the transformation. It’s slow but hot. Smokey and non-linear. I can’t help but seeing the opportunity that this crisis holds in its hands. “Here,” It says. “It’s not gonna seem like a gift. In fact, there’s gonna be some hell to burn through. But if you seize the opportunity, and unwrap the outer layers, and after a lot of suffering for a lot of people, you will unpack the box, you will find some new seeds [...]
How are you feeling these days? Are you sinking into this time? Are you flowing with it? Rolling with the punches? Itching to spring out of it? Dreading what awaits on the other side? I find myself NOT wanting to go back to “normal.” Ever since quarantine began, I have been less stressed, less depressed, less on edge. I feel guilty about it because so many people are suffering. I miss my parents and my sister [...]
We’re in this together. My actions are woven into your airways. We’re in this together. Your lungs and mine - breathing each other’s fate. We’re in this together. Your actions directly influence my pulse. We’re in this together. My life and yours. We’re in this together. Which is why it pains me when I encounter carelessness and insensitivity. When so clearly greed is the leading force behind so much of our world. When it seems like for some people, others [...]
From Quarantine Queen, Mindful Mother, Domestic Dame, Goofy Goddess, Mama Magic, to: “SHUT THE FUCK UP EVERYONE, AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!” Waves. Cycles. Spirals. Patient. Present. Strong. Stable. Fluid. Fun. Bitchy. Broken. Sensitive. Stuck. Wavering. Wondering… When I rock the covid (the new lifesty, not the virus), I feel grounded and giving - a source of support. A resource of steadiness. A sorceress - alchemizing the situation. Bending the boundaries to tend with tenderness [...]
Last week was harder. By Thursday I woke up in the morning and I was a mean mommy. I really tried not to be. During the night and into the early morning Shefa wasn’t letting me sleep. He woke up so early and used his special rooster voice. That voice he likes to use on those really early mornings when I am especially exhausted. Some mornings, even if he’s waaaaay too early to be awake, he [...]
