Mantra

Weeds

She’s sitting on the bench by the dinning table, hair a little messy, lots of missing teeth, a crazy wide spread of artist markers - a hundred and twenty colors and shades, to be exact. She’s working on an elephant. Fifteen shades of gray. Muse-struck.    “Mama?” her eyes are focused on the curving lines of her elephant trunk.   “Yes, my love.”   “I have all these bad thoughts in my head.” The trunk she’s working on is playfully [...]

Shivaratri Journey – Ceremony/Circle/Practice

To light up fire in the heart of love. To practice devotion. To be devoted to practice. To domesticate the beast.  To rewild the mother. To weave the erotic and the ascetic into the fabric of intimacy. To be an animal, a fierce fire, and an artist. To worship the cycles of darkness and light. To breathe into the darkness of night  And dream the sparkles in its infinite sky to life. To wish. To renegotiate visions. To reconfigure intentions. [...]

Death & Decay

It’s that time of year again - the peak of Fall, tipping over the midpoint between Fall Equinox and Winter Solstice. Darkness is gaining momentum. The days are getting shorter and shorter, faster and faster. Nights are growing longer. Death and Decay spread wide through the natural world now.    We are being pulled down. Guided to be lost beneath the surface of the earth, beneath the surface of our lives. Down and deep and in to the underworld. To [...]

Receive Yourself, Strengthen Yourself, And Create Yourself – Yogafying Sukkot

Hey lovely!   Life keeps getting more and more complex. Doesn’t it? We become more layered. There’s more to deal with, more responsibilities, more on our plates. We are more deeply invested in things. We are tangled up and woven in to other lives more intensely. We become more grounded in who we are. But our tendency to become more rigid increases. Our foundation is seemingly more solid. But there’s also more loss. The ground beneath us threatens to shake [...]

Softness And Strength – Durga And The Battlefield Of Self Love

You have strengths. Powerful abilities. The capacity to overcome challenges. We all have stubborn tendencies. Aspects of our being that keep us blocked in some ways. Parts of who we are that keep us stuck. You have vulnerabilities. Sweet spots. A soft side. Places in you that are wide open. We all have weaknesses. Instabilities. Shaken grounds. Dark holes that threaten to swallow us. You are a woven together tapestry of triumphs and disappointments, hurt spaces and a healing forces, [...]

Falling

Fall Equinox is upon us! The first day of Autumn. A moment of balance between day and night. A celebration of harvest. A holiday of letting go.   Fall teaches us to fall apart. Gracefully. To release what we tighten ourselves around. To let go of what lets go of us. To shed layers that no longer belong to our path. To free up some space as we rid ourselves of old ways. It takes time before renewal takes place. [...]

When The World Breaks Inside Your Heart

The Amazon forest is burning and there’s nothing I can do about it. Tears in my throat. Smoke in my eyes. I feel so angry. Furious. Depressed. Suffocated by the inability to do anything. Petitions. Prayers. Whatever, right? It’s exhausting to marvel at how powerless we are.   It seems as though the Bolsonaros and the Trumps and the Netanyahus of the world are winning.   I’ve always been a doubter, cynical, a bit edgy, and a little jaded. But [...]

A Little Goes A Long Way

I laid there so agitated. She wasn’t falling asleep. I could hear her breath so awake. And he was just all over the place. Switching sides like a maniac – right breast, left breast, right, left, right, left… SO ANNOYING! Go to sleep, little guy!   Yes, he’s almost two. Yes I still nurse him to sleep. Yes she’s six, and yes, I still cuddle her into her dreams. It’s our sweetest moment of the day. It’s when we get [...]

How To Use Your Lasso

On Some days there’s a delicious feeling flowing through your tasks. On the other days, it all feels like ass.  I cherish the delicious days. And I tend to think of my life as a gorgeous gift, sparkling with magic and love, and sprinkled with enough challenges to keep me interested, and enough fall downs to keep me humble.  Sometimes, though, life hits you hard. And your inner world undergoes a makeover. In the process, you shed, you shake, you [...]