Death

Broken With Golden Seams

I wake up in the mornings and I wonder - how could this dystopian sci-fi novel that we are living through get any crazier? There’s no way! And then it does. Every day holds another ridiculous twist in the plot, which makes this book seem so over the top. And then the psycho, comic book villain, ridiculous orange monster from the sewers is put on steroids. I mean…    Some days I feel drained. Like nothing is left in me [...]

Feeling Scattered?

The energy of Summer is slipping away. We are making our way toward the dark days of the year. It feels like we’ve been in the dark days of the year the whole year. The Great Unknown has been a reliable friend. It’s back to school time for some of us. Like other people, I feel a sense of stagnation, even as we move into this new beginning. This year demands of us to stay put as we fall apart. [...]

Inter-covid-nected

We’re in this together. My actions are woven into your airways. We’re in this together. Your lungs and mine - breathing each other’s fate.  We’re in this together. Your actions directly influence my pulse.  We’re in this together. My life and yours. We’re in this together.  Which is why it pains me when I encounter carelessness and insensitivity.  When so clearly greed is the leading force behind so much of our world.  When it seems like for some people, others [...]

Corona Cocoon

From Quarantine Queen, Mindful Mother, Domestic Dame, Goofy Goddess, Mama Magic, to: “SHUT THE FUCK UP EVERYONE, AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!”   Waves. Cycles. Spirals.   Patient. Present. Strong. Stable. Fluid. Fun.   Bitchy. Broken. Sensitive. Stuck. Wavering. Wondering…   When I rock the covid (the new lifesty, not the virus), I feel grounded and giving - a source of support. A resource of steadiness. A sorceress - alchemizing the situation. Bending the boundaries to tend with tenderness [...]

Reformation In Isolation

It was hard to get out of bed this morning. Dark and cold outside. I wanted to get up before everyone else, so that I can have a moment for myself to meditate, but it didn’t happen. So I meditated with the kids staring at me. They tried to be quiet, but most of the time they forgot about the quiet contract that they signed when they decided to sit on the couch in the living room while I meditated. [...]

Corona Connection

Slowing the fuck down. I am a much nicer mama when we’re not in a rush. No plans. No place we must get to. No certain time to do anything. I feel like I’m spirling gently through a different galaxy, light years away from here, someplace that isn’t quite a place. Maybe it once was. Maybe it will be. But for now, it is a space, with particles and possibilities. Suspendant. Uprooted. And more grounded than I have been in [...]

In The Crazies Of Now

Somewhere between fear and disregarding the facts. Somewhere between dismissing the seriousness of the situation and total panic.  Between freaking out and mocking the freak out.  Between hysteria and being cautious.  Somewhere between believing everything the media says and believing it’s all a conspiracy.  Between blaming it all on pharmaceutical companies and desperately begging for a test. Between the lies of the president and the truth smacking us in the face.   Somewhere between sheets of toilet paper, on top of [...]

Cosmic Love

Whether he dances in the forest of my heart, howls in the dark nights of my soul, meditates on mountain tops inside my head, retreats to his cave, takes the seat of the teacher, or roams the cremation grounds of my life’s deaths, Siva is by far my favorite masculine deity.    (not a gender thing, but rather a code, an energy, a coalition of qualities)    I am a sucker for metaphor. Myths and archetypes help me understand myself [...]

Where Whole Becomes Holy

As the light dims, and the hours of darkness expand, the temperature lowers, and the desire to spend less time outdoors increases, we are moved by nature’s guidance indoors and inwards.   The rhythm of this season is slower. It inspires contemplation. It invokes meditation. It ignites the fire in the cave of our dreams. The spirit of the season guides us into a space of less doing, and more being, where we can enliven our creativity by releasing and [...]

When Epic Turns Subtle

I used to practice a few hours a day. Every day. Deep backbends. Arm-balances galore. Most of my day was spent upside down. Hip openers and forward bends took me into the eye of the storm that was me. I’d get high on oxygen with all that pranayama. I’d drive around town and take multiple classes a day with amazing teachers. I drank in the yoga, not in goblets, but in buckets. It was profound.     Sometimes I’d get a [...]

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