Death

Reformation In Isolation

It was hard to get out of bed this morning. Dark and cold outside. I wanted to get up before everyone else, so that I can have a moment for myself to meditate, but it didn’t happen. So I meditated with the kids staring at me. They tried to be quiet, but most of the time they forgot about the quiet contract that they signed when they decided to sit on the couch in the living room while I meditated. [...]

Corona Connection

Slowing the fuck down. I am a much nicer mama when we’re not in a rush. No plans. No place we must get to. No certain time to do anything. I feel like I’m spirling gently through a different galaxy, light years away from here, someplace that isn’t quite a place. Maybe it once was. Maybe it will be. But for now, it is a space, with particles and possibilities. Suspendant. Uprooted. And more grounded than I have been in [...]

In The Crazies Of Now

Somewhere between fear and disregarding the facts. Somewhere between dismissing the seriousness of the situation and total panic.  Between freaking out and mocking the freak out.  Between hysteria and being cautious.  Somewhere between believing everything the media says and believing it’s all a conspiracy.  Between blaming it all on pharmaceutical companies and desperately begging for a test. Between the lies of the president and the truth smacking us in the face.   Somewhere between sheets of toilet paper, on top of [...]

Cosmic Love

Whether he dances in the forest of my heart, howls in the dark nights of my soul, meditates on mountain tops inside my head, retreats to his cave, takes the seat of the teacher, or roams the cremation grounds of my life’s deaths, Siva is by far my favorite masculine deity.    (not a gender thing, but rather a code, an energy, a coalition of qualities)    I am a sucker for metaphor. Myths and archetypes help me understand myself [...]

Shivaratri Journey – Ceremony/Circle/Practice

To light up fire in the heart of love. To practice devotion. To be devoted to practice. To domesticate the beast.  To rewild the mother. To weave the erotic and the ascetic into the fabric of intimacy. To be an animal, a fierce fire, and an artist. To worship the cycles of darkness and light. To breathe into the darkness of night  And dream the sparkles in its infinite sky to life. To wish. To renegotiate visions. To reconfigure intentions. [...]

Where Whole Becomes Holy

As the light dims, and the hours of darkness expand, the temperature lowers, and the desire to spend less time outdoors increases, we are moved by nature’s guidance indoors and inwards.   The rhythm of this season is slower. It inspires contemplation. It invokes meditation. It ignites the fire in the cave of our dreams. The spirit of the season guides us into a space of less doing, and more being, where we can enliven our creativity by releasing and [...]

When Epic Turns Subtle

I used to practice a few hours a day. Every day. Deep backbends. Arm-balances galore. Most of my day was spent upside down. Hip openers and forward bends took me into the eye of the storm that was me. I’d get high on oxygen with all that pranayama. I’d drive around town and take multiple classes a day with amazing teachers. I drank in the yoga, not in goblets, but in buckets. It was profound.     Sometimes I’d get a [...]

Death & Decay

It’s that time of year again - the peak of Fall, tipping over the midpoint between Fall Equinox and Winter Solstice. Darkness is gaining momentum. The days are getting shorter and shorter, faster and faster. Nights are growing longer. Death and Decay spread wide through the natural world now.    We are being pulled down. Guided to be lost beneath the surface of the earth, beneath the surface of our lives. Down and deep and in to the underworld. To [...]

Falling

Fall Equinox is upon us! The first day of Autumn. A moment of balance between day and night. A celebration of harvest. A holiday of letting go.   Fall teaches us to fall apart. Gracefully. To release what we tighten ourselves around. To let go of what lets go of us. To shed layers that no longer belong to our path. To free up some space as we rid ourselves of old ways. It takes time before renewal takes place. [...]

Born This Way – Blessings And Bummers Bound Together

A contemplation and a tale of Summer Solstice    We’re slow on weekend mornings. The kids try to get us out of bed. We refuse. It starts with our toddler. He has very sophisticated ways to try to get us to get up. Like screaming really loudly in our ears. Or sit on our heads. Or pull on my nipple. Or drop a water bottle on Andrew’s head. Then his sister comes to the rescue. And she has a lot [...]

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