Stag Nation

Andrew, the kids, and I took a road trip through Northern California to Southern Oregon - up close to the coast and then down through the Cascade Range and the Eastern Sierras. We reunited with a best friend, played in the river, talked to the Redwoods, had breakfast in San Francisco, stood in the presence of volcanic power, washed our eyes and feet in bejeweled alpine lakes, soaked in massive beauty, saw places we’ve always wanted to see, experienced some [...]

To Be A Bull (not a bully)

Hey love,   Happy New Moon!    This new Lunar Cycle begins today in the sign of Taurus - the archetype of mid-Spring, embodying the sensual, flourishing, fertile vibes of the season.   It calls us into pleasure. “Stop working so damn hard!” she says as she runs barefoot into the meadow, where a carpet of colorful blossoms meet her skin tenderly, and wash over her eyes, as the scent fills her nose with the promise of good things.    [...]

Unfurling Fern – Keep Recreating Yourself

How is your body feeling lately? Are you feeling more awake and ready to go? Or still super tired? Bubbling with new energy? Or maybe the exhaustion of this past year is catching up to you?    Earlier this week, on my solo morning walk, I saw some fuzzy, furry spirals of unfurling ferns, finding their way toward the light, finding their way into their fernness.    I was planning to show that to the kids on our afternoon walk, [...]

Maha Shivaratri – Desire, Love, Devotion, Commitment, Freedom

I love a good holiday - one that invites us to contemplate deeply, to call for our inspiration, to bring form to our desires, to bring forth the expression of our deepest longing. Last night (and today) is one of my favorite holidays. It is Maha Shivaratri - the Great Night Of Shiva.   In India, this is a night of great celebration and deep meditation. The tradition is to fast and stay up all night, to commune with the [...]

Underworld Adventure

It’s been an intense year, and as it launches itself into the final stretch, it offers some relief, but still the bells of crazies ring loud.     The leaves change colors and fall off the trees, and the world darkens and quiets down and  cools off. We descend. Some of us hear the call to go into the inner spaces, into our roots. Down below the surfaces, deep, down, and in we go. We burrow with the scorpions.    It’s [...]

Broken With Golden Seams

I wake up in the mornings and I wonder - how could this dystopian sci-fi novel that we are living through get any crazier? There’s no way! And then it does. Every day holds another ridiculous twist in the plot, which makes this book seem so over the top. And then the psycho, comic book villain, ridiculous orange monster from the sewers is put on steroids. I mean…    Some days I feel drained. Like nothing is left in me [...]

In The Bog Of Determination

Somewhere between tenacious will power and sleepy eyes, between fierce desire accompanied by horse power determination, and spiraling down the road of 2020. Somewhere between a steadfast destination and the abyss beneath our feet.    Eyes tired. Chest tight. I breathe slowly and have another coffee, trying to stay awake for a little longer and get some work done. It’s not even the lack of sleep. I am usually an energy fireball. Give me coffee and I can move like [...]

Breakthroughs & Boundaries

In these last few months we have been given one opportunity after another to look at who we are, to ask ourselves who we want to become, to view the way things have been, and to reconsider our participation in this world.   In one way or another, we have been forced to pause. We have been invited into a space of self reflection.   In this pause we get to ask. We get to not know. We get to [...]

Waves Of Change

I clearly feel the transformation. It’s slow but hot. Smokey and non-linear.    I can’t help but seeing the opportunity that this crisis holds in its hands. “Here,” It says. “It’s not gonna seem like a gift. In fact, there’s gonna be some hell to burn through. But if you seize the opportunity, and unwrap the outer layers, and after a lot of suffering for a lot of people, you will unpack the box, you will find some new seeds [...]

Quarantine Queen

How are you feeling these days? Are you sinking into this time? Are you flowing with it? Rolling with the punches? Itching to spring out of it? Dreading what awaits on the other side?   I find myself NOT wanting to go back to “normal.”    Ever since quarantine began, I have been less stressed, less depressed, less on edge.   I feel guilty about it because so many people are suffering.   I miss my parents and my sister [...]